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"The countless
hypomanias, and mania itself, all have brought into my life a different level
of sensing and feeling and thinking. Even when I have been most psychotic
– delusional, hallucinating, frenzied – I have been aware of finding new corners
in my mind and heart. Some of those comers were incredible and beautiful and
took my breath away and made me feel as though I could die right then and
the images would sustain me. Some of them were grotesque and ugly and I never
wanted to know they were there or to see them again. But, always, there were
those new corners and – when feeling my normal self, beholden for that self
to medicine and love – I cannot imagine becoming jaded to life, because I
know of those limitless comers, with their limitless views."
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